today is friday. i skipped work. i watched the price is right. i brewed beer. i fixed my grill. i drank tequila. I played Xbox360. it was everything i thought it could be, and more.

i did this because next week is potentially going to sux. my fellow server dude at work is going to be on vacation for a week, so anything that would fall on him, will probably fall on me instead. i hate that. this week sucked too. i figured today was a good opportunity to skip work and do my stuff, and chill out, which is always therapeutic. it was.

i have a job where i really dont do much at all. i sort of get paid to sit there and do nothing and wait for something to break. a lot of people dream for the day where they have a job where they make some decent cash, and do nothing all day, but let me tell you, its not all its cracked up to be. sure, i have the internets, but after a year or two, that gets really old, and you run out of shit to look at. you think its a good opportunity to learn, but then you learn a lot of stuff, then that gets old. it fucks with your head, and its quite difficult. i go home sometimes so mentally exhausted that i can't stand it, having done absolutely nothing. just yesterday i wondered if i could stare at the fucking ceiling for 10 minutes straight and do nothing else. turns out i could. it is like being in prison, with only a computer.

i have considered taking up smoking as a way to break the monotony if the days, but that is detrimental to my health, so its a bad plan.

i would like to retire. i dont have enough money, but if i did, i would never work anywhere ever again. i know a lot of people claim you would get bored real quick, and run out of shit to do, but that has already happened to me, so i am prepared to deal with it. i could certainly find plenty of shit to keep me busy if i didnt have to sit at a fucking desk all day doing nothing.

i got joy, true joy, out of eating a bowl of chocolately delight special k with almond milk, and watching the price is right, and chatting up some old friends this morning, and i was truly happy doing it, and i suspect it would never get old. sure, i might switch up the type of cereal every now and again for variety, but it seems to not take much to keep my occupied and happy.

i just wish i could get into that happy zone at work somehow, but i can't seem to. i dont mind being there, but literally doing nothing for weeks on end makes weird shit happen in my brain. I have the strangest thoughts sometimes.

anyway, this is retarded and rambling, probably due to tequila. i found jimmy buffett tequila in the 1.75 litre bottle for only 29 bux. with one pint, i made Tequila Por Mi Amante:

http://www.slashfood.com/2008/06/14/raising-the-bar-tequila-por-mi-amante/

the rest i plan to just poor down me gullet.

Oh, woe is me
Such a burden to be
Oh, poor twisted me