So yesterday some shady shit went on a work. Some management types who are afraid of losing their jobs are almost competing to prove that each is more important than the other. A big project is coming up and they both want to feel important by making decisions on their own, and working with a vendor and basically stamping their name all over the project. They have not bothered to engage the team in the project so far, so it was a bit of a surprise to us all. This is an alarming trend I have noticed over the last year or two. Anyway, so after spending 90 minutes on the phone listening to a vendor and our mid/upper management suck each other's ass, we went outside for a venting session. I spent 30 minutes talking quite animatedly about how I was not pissed off or bitter. If I was not angry or bitter, I would not have said anything and just ignored it, so I guess I really was. Everyone else agreed that they were not pissed off or bitter either yet all of continued to bitch about how shitty our jobs are. It was an interesting look at human behavior, and it was not until later that evening that I realized that I spent 30 minutes directly contradicting what I was saying. I wonder why people do that? I see it all the time.

Now that I am aware of what happened, I think I will be able to better control that type of thing. At the very least, if I am steaming fucking mad, it would allow me to retain the upper hand if I didn't spend the time venting. And we all know that having the upper hand is key in EVERY scenario.